The Lord Knows
God knows the ending of every story from before the beginning, and He says it is good. Two things are for sure: He will either change our circum- stances or He will change us in our circumstances. When He changes us, the circumstances no longer have the same hold on us. God saw every- thing in my story, from before the beginning to the never-ending end.
When God is at work in our life (and He always is), we may not know or recognize it at the time or the importance of it. I didn’t.
At age ten, watching Billie Graham on TV, when he said, you come down and give your heart—I did, on my knees in front of our console TV, crying like a baby, and I was the only one in my family at that time watching and doing that.
I also watched Oral Roberts every week and cried each time I saw people being healed. God set healing in my heart at age ten, thirty-three years before I knew how important it was going to be in my life, but He did.
Fast forward to 1980. I began to have a lot of questions about God, and the questions began to turn into doubt. I told God, “If I don’t get some- thing to hang on to and override all these questions and doubt, I’m just going to throw the towel in and go my merry way.”